Well well well, here I am back again. :) Ready to tell you ALL about my recent adventures. For starters, my life has been extremely hectic to say the least. Hence, the reason this has been lacking posts. :) A lot of stuff has been going on. I've met many new people over the course of the past couple of months, and to be quite honest things have been going pretty great for me lately.
I've been excelling in my classes, (4.0 babyyy!) created lots of new relationships with new people, began going to Youth Group and developing a new relationship with God, and found that I'm finally comfortable in my own skin, as well as my place in the universe. A-freakin-Men to that! :)
Another reason why things have been so busy lately, is because when I'm not at school I'm at cheer. :) Ohh yeahhh that's right kids! Competition season has officially started! :D
About to compete! :) Ohana!
Opening motions! I'm to the left in the veryyyyy front. :)
Doubles! :) Can you find me?
Starting the cheer. :) This was at McMinnville, and we got 1st! Whoo!
Clackamas...is the best. :)
Alas, I must inform you that I have been switched with others and moved away from all of my front privilages. But, 'tis for the better. Because as we improve and make changes to our routine to make it even more first-place-worthy, it is necessary. :) So I will live. Here we come state title! :D
That is the majority of things that have been going on lately, though I guess to make my situation more clear to you I should inform you how completely off-the-wall, out of my mind I have been. Do not ask me why. But my thoughts have been driving me insane lately. Thus, I took up writing in a composition book about my latest issues and thoughts that entwine themselves with other issues and thoughts to make them larger, and more confusing. Curious you say? Care for an exerpt? I shall oblige.
"12/16/09-Oh how strong the chaos is that envelops me at this moment. Such a potent twisting in my mind. Screaming for a savior. And why? Lately, things are so amazing, so glorious, so everything I've needed. And yet, today it lacks. And because of this I feel like ripping my hair to pieces from the root. Why? Ignorance is bliss. I must be crazy to try and let that pure bliss go. Forever after living, dwelling in this neverending, reoccuring turmoil."
Or perhaps this one should suit your fancy?
"I sigh tonight as I sit in my dark room lit only by the candle-light flickering beside me. My serene place; Where all I listen to are my thoughts and the wind thrash and sway the trees outside of my window. I think of how my day slowly spiraled downward as it progressed. An ever growing cloud of gloom. A very rare occasion. Sigh. I don't know what to do. My mind is at ease, but only for a short period of time I fear..."
An amateur's work. And of course, I know my life is good and that I will endure some of my most stressful of times in my years to come, but right now my mind feels chaotic, and in order to keep it somewhat organized and focused I write.
So to all of you adults out there that are muttering to your computer screens right now saying: "You think YOUR life is chaotic?" Or maybe the age old "Well you're just a teenager! You know nothing about stress."
I will smile at you and remind you that I know this is true, and that I have a different set of stresses. Granted, they are not nearly as important as I'm sure YOURS are oh great and mighty old ones, but they are important to me.
So there you have it folks. That is my life at this current moment. Christmas is just around the corner, and needless to say I feel...different, and a certain lacking of the holiday spirit. But, I am fine. To clarify, I am not in a depressed state (for those of you who know me, that's impossible) nor am I having issues I cannot deal with on my own. I just merely felt like sharing.
Thank you, and goodnight. :)
